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GO PHILS!!!!!!!!

Win or lose tonight this has been an amazing baseball season and the 2009 Philadelphia Phillies are a great team. Also, the NY Yankees have been a worthy opponent in the World Series, hats off to them.

That is all.

Tags: baseball, Phillies

maybe

maybe it was when you left

maybe it was when you came back

maybe it was when I dreamed you were leaving and I dreaded the thought

or when I woke up next to you and felt so good

maybe it was when I had some of your home cooking

maybe it was when you weren’t crazy

and when you weren’t mean

and when you weren’t insecure

and when you didn’t let it get in the way

or when you simply talked to me

maybe that’s when I realized I how much I want you

Tags: random

you said

you said i go out too much
i won’t meet a nice girl at a bar
but i certainly won’t meet any sitting at home, typing on the old wordpress.
i’ve met girls randomly, through friends, events, here and there
ones i met in real life cheated on me
ones i met online stabbed me
ones i met randomly ran away and fucked boys and girls
after professing me their love
so why not meet a good girl in a bar?
the place matters little when two like minds connect
i’ve met mothers of my children telling me different beers in the bar
mother theresa while sitting on the train
or slinging food with me at the hospital
i’ve met evil people at work,
pure evil pushing a cart at the grocery store
women met through friends who’ve tried to light the place on fire
and called their daddy when the cops got called on them.
met guys through friends who nailed my girl
and after i escaped from her craziness
he knocked her up but didn’t pay the bills
you only say i won’t meet a good girl at a bar
because you don’t want to go to a bar
and you want me to think you’re a good girl, but i’ve seen through that ruse
i’ve seen through hers and hers and his and his
and i’m a fool for looking for IT outside of myself
but i can’t help but look for that love,
look for those arms holding me when falling asleep
or for that bony back laying on me while we quietly watch law and order
i didn’t meet you in a bar and look where you left me,
look where you leave yourself

follow friday is stupid

I don’t care who you are following. If I wanted to know, I would check your followers and see who looked cool. Or, I’d check wefollow to see who is relevant to what I want to know about. I say, #fuckfollowfriday. How about Fellatio Friday? Fornication Friday? Fermentation Friday? All of these are much better options.

Tags: twitter

from a while ago

that day, driving as the sun rose, i felt something new. it was the feeling you get when you want to fight or run, but it was light instead of angry. my fight or flight turned into a big ball of sunshine, and it surprised the shit out of me. despite my times with other women and extensive drug use i’d never experienced a feeling like that in all my life. there were no chemicals used, no magic spells. being with you made my heart explode even though i didn’t know it could. to be honest i wish it hadn’t sometimes; the feelings stirred are occasionally overwhelming. how peculiar that such a thing can happen, the tides of my desires ebbing and flowing on the beaches of stability in my feeble brain.

i used to write to you more. now i write and save as a draft. wait a day. edit. save. simmer. revise, rewrite, delete. i see how fleeting my impulses can be. i see how i can get carried away by the ruminations of my lonely mind as it grasps for a little taste of you. all of these things are conversations with myself, which i didn’t fully realize until recently. the feeling from that morning is within me too. all my doubts are there, all my joy. the peace i feel sometimes and the tension of my love, it’s all in there. so why can i only feel so good when i’m with you?